Yesterday...
Ha ha. I grew up listening to this song, love it.
Now back to serious business! It's hard to call someone that you don't trust. And you're supposed to be able to trust your boss. But sometimes you get a boss that doesn't really care for you. And that my friends suck.
My boss at this "carer-job" is about to quit, and no one could be happier than me. Because I REALLY DON'T like this guy! He hasn't done me anything good. Nothing at all. The lowest hour-salary that you can get in the carer work, is 85 crowns. That is what I have been told anyway. And guess what, eventhough my coordinator, got so happy when I called and said that I wanted my job back, she hasn't raised my salary a single crown.
And then it seems like all the coordinators went for a vacation at the same time. And I really don't want to call the boss. I really don't. And he doesn't even answer when you call either.
GAAAAHHH!!!
Love
Lotta
Ett höjt ögonbryn.
Här sitter jag på jobbet och läser aftonbladet och lite annat smått och gott. Och helt plötsligt så får jag en sån där "framtidscen" uppspelad i huvudet. Framför mig i ett hem som ser skrämmande likt ut som våran nuvarande lgh så står ett tonårsbarn och skriker ut riktigt fula ord mot mig. Och av någon underlig anledning så vet jag att det här är mitt barn, jag vet dock inte om det är en flicka eller en pojke, men jag kan säga er att vilket jävla språk den ungen har!
Och det roliga med hela grejen är att jag som tydligen är mamma då, och aldrig själv har sagt något liknande till mina föräldrar, känner ett iskallt lugn och sen att jag lyfter ena ögonbrynet. Ett litet överlägset leende eftersom jag nu är den som har kontrollen. Det var min hela reaktion på detta vansinnes utbrott som jag aldrig skulle kunna tänka mig att få på mina föräldrar. Jag tror dock jag har ett litet minne av att knappt komma till "Jävla..." (gubbjävel) men resten kom liksom av sig då min pappa spände ögonen i mig totalt med en iskall blick och frågade: "Vad sa du?". Och jag var faktiskt så smart att jag sa: "Förlåt pappa, jag tänkte säga jävla gubbjävel..."
Och det gör jag aldrig mer om.
Fine, man har tänkt fula saker, men man säger dem fan aldrig högt!
Puss och kram på er!
Don't make your parents life a living hell. They're trying their best. And think of how you want your children to behave against you!
Find Madeleine
Of course it was an invoice, it allways is. But one thing caught my eye. The stamp over the stamp didn't only tell the date and time the letter wa sent. It also said:
Find Madeleine
www.findmadeleine.com
I've heard about this girl a long time ago, but I never heard what the outcome was. But now I know that she has been missing for 85 days. If she were my daughter, I would be broken-hearted. I can't imagine how they kepp on living, but surely Madeleines siblings are much help since they need to be cared for.
I just don't understand how any one can do that, take someone elses child and not return it when it has become this big. If she's still alive, I hope she'll return soon. And if not, I hope they get that bastard who did it! Then I might think of voting for a death penalty, if only I lived there and was able to vote.
With this I just wanted to say that there is a place in my heart for this little girl, and every other kidnapped child that I haven't heard of. And it will always be there no matter if she's found alive or not.
Love
Lotta
Hurry UP!
I'm obsessed with Harry Potter.... What to do?
I'll probably get the book today, and she'll borrow Eragon, and the Elder from me. Gaaaahhh! I can't wait!
Fruit lady didn't know whose the fruit was... Annoying for me since I didn' t know where to put it.. I actually cooked yesterday, eventhough I was so tired. But both Mattias and my stomaches screamed in agony... So I had to. But at least I saved some money since I got some left overs for lunch today.
Today I'll be a good citizen and donate some blood. And evidently it will take me aboute 40 min to get to Södertälje. It takes me more than that to get home from here, eventhough it's closer...
Well well.
And after being a good citizen I'll meet up with some friends and talk about life and everything else...
No sorry, I'm just not up to this today either...
Puss och kram
NOOOOOOOO!!!
Sometimes I'm so stupid!
Today I messed up two invoice registrations. Last week it happened once with four. But Annika finally showed me how to make the registration easier for me. THANK YOU!
And now I remembered that I FORGOT the phone number I was supposed to call yesterday and today, at home this morning... No rime or reason!
At least I didn't trigger the alarm today...
The Cleaning guy really made a mess of his cleaning. He didn't clean my floor properly, and now the floor smells like vomit.... Fun guy. That reminds me that our appartment needs to be cleaned. But my lovely little bf that has vacation isn't going to do it... So I guess I have to do it when I get home today... *sigh*
I have so much to tell you about the last few days, but I'm just not up to it. Really. Yesterday I wrote almost six pages on the book, and then mom told me that I had made one of the caracters completely wrong. And now everything feels useless. I'm glad that the doucuments are on the computer and not just on paper, because then I would probably burn them right now and tell her to write the whole book by her self instead.
Gaaah.... *yawn*
There is so much that I haven't been told about this job. And evidently I don't have buttons to all that work here either...
Have to unbutton these pants, they're to thight... And I have to sit here all day with them on me. Depending on if my salary is a bit higher this month I'll buy a new pair tomorrow.
Yesterday I was to tired to cook, so I had Mattias to buy us some pizza, SOOOOO GOOOD! And after dinner I fell asleep with the first Harry Potter book by my side. Almost finished it last night.
Mattias and Robin went for a swim in the lake in the night, I followed, but I didn't swim. Mattias foud a watch, again. But this one wasn't as nice as the otherone from last year. This one was a "Gul"-clock with footballs on it (soccer). And it had no hands left. I put it on the aluminum ladder if someone was going to recognize it.
Saturday, what did I do saturday? I was working at the "home" where I am a substitute carer. Loooong day, but good money!
Sautrday morning, Ida called and we decided to go for a swim. That day it really felt like I had a vacation. Relaxing, talking about everything and nothing at all. Really nice day. We said hello to this REALLY BIG horse in a enclosed pasture that we passed when we were on our way home. Beautiful horse, so big and completely white. An albino clearly.
Wow I wrote some eventhough I thought I wouldn't manage.
Puss och kram
Hamburgsund
Hanna on the board.
Hanna and Hampus
Sixten on the beach
Hanna and Hampus
Hanna and Hampus
Mattias on the board
Sixten
Sandra and Sixten
Sixten
Sixten and the message in a bottle we found
Sandra and Sixten
Hanna
"Robin" on the rock
My love
Hanna
Tony
Tony, Sixten and Sandra
My two loves
Hampus and Hanna
Hanna
Sixten took a loooooooong break
Sixte on the beach again
Hanna covered in sand
The tatoo is made by Pelle at House of Pain in Södertälje
Sandra doesn't want to bee in the picture
What do you see?
La Familia
The view from the beach
JESUS walks on water
I'm a reader not I an author...
But I will finish this book, I have too. It means so much to me. It's the best memories I have from my mother.
And perhaps sometime in the future they will publish this one.
I began writing the first chapter today, I wrote about three pages maybe a bit more, it took me a few hours.
Sadly I have to write it in swedish, at least for now. And when it's finished I'll translate it.
Had a really tuff morning at work. I was the first there, and I didn't know, so I just walked in. The alarm went of and I had no idea what to do. Gaaah.. I'll tell you all about it later...
Puss och kram
No doubt about it, I got the best boyfriend ever.
Nou doubt about it...
Sorry you guy's who read my Facebook blog, but he really tuched my heart yesterday and this morning. I have to tell the world all about it!
Last night was great. And this morning, aww, who could ever want someone else than him? He woke me up, evidently he's been up all night, in a really cosy way, held me and kissed me. Told me to sleep an hour longer since he was going to drive me all the way to work. And so I did. Isn't that sweet?
It's only a few day's until the last Harry Potter book is released. But I won't read it until my colleague has finished her book, I don't want to buy it, not yet. So therefore I'll borrow it from her. I think that I did a reservation for the book at the library, but when I found out how late they would get it I called her and she said: Ofcourse. Since we both know how much the other one likes HP we can call eachother just to talk about the books... haha
Yesterday I found my calender and realised that I'll work for six day's in a row this week, then I'm free on sunday, and then I'll work monday to friday, free on the weekend, and then..... I'll work 7 days a week for two weeks, and that is just for now, if I get an assignment immediately after this one I'm going to work 7 days more. And though I don't want to kill my self I really wish for that to happen, because then my salary would get higher.
It will be tuff but I'll manage.
10.25
One hour and 20 minutes until lunch...
It's really stupid to try calling a library that hasn't opend yet.... Several times.... I'm stupid, and tired.
What to do? No one to talk to?
Puss och kram hela dan!
Here I am
Earlier today I couldn't decide if you say I was or I were... My brain was like a spungebob, yellow, freaky and (sorry Jilly) stupid. I think it still is.
I know that I was supposed to walk home, at least the last bit, but Suzanne asked if I wanted a lift to Stuvsta, and since it rained a bit I said yes. I really like her, she's funny and nice.
Oh, sorry. It's time to go to bed now, Robin finally left (haha kidding, but seriously finally). So now it's time for me and Mattias to be cuddly. hahahahahahahahahahahahaha.
And the tree just happened to stand there....
Puss och kram
Die trying
Laundry today? Or was it tomorrow? Well well...
This weekends that follows will probably not be fun, since I'm going to work three weekends in a row. And the weekdays too. Thinking about walking home today, not all the way but the last bit so that I get some exercise. The phone has been almost quiet today, got a lot of mail though. And I accidently put some calls through to the wrong persons. Several times. Both yesterday and today. But I should tell you that it's not easy to learn everything about four companys at such short time, and especially when some of the information you got isn't correct. Then it's really hard.
Mom called a few hours ago, I hate when she does that. If you knew her you would understand. But I wont go public on my moms and my problems. I don't think there will ever be a book. Not if she keeps on behaving like this. She completely ruined my day. Everytime I stop reading she invades my brain. I so want the Harry Potter book right now! He cheers me up.
The guys (men) here at work talks about porn... Porn magazines, omg... They are so bored. But at least they have something to do. Ha ha ha really funny.
This night Mattias went to bed at 04.00. I had no idea where I was, or what time it was.. or anything. I just knew it was early, or late and that I wanted to fall asleep again. And so I did.
Puss och kram
Beautiful weather and good food.
Yesterday when the work day was over I got a ride home with one of the guys that works here. So instead of taking the subway at 16.19, I was allready home by then. And how glad I was for that, because it was so hot outside and Mattias and some friends were about to go swimming at a place called Sandviken. So we did, and after that we decided that all of us were going to have a barbecue at our place.
Daniel and his girlfriend Åsa brought some sallad and a grilled chicken so we made some chicken-salad, and I made some potato, and then we grilled sausages. So we had a real meal. Later on I took Bamse for a walk and I realised how small he is compared to Helenas American Bulldog... When I pulled the lead he followed so easy compared to Baloo.
And when I came back from the walk I was so tired that I returned the dog and went to bed. I wanted Mattias to wake me up when he was going to bed but he didn't. So I guess he got in bed quite late/early since the guys stayed and played some hockey-tournament.
And today I have to do some laundry. I was going to do it yesterday, but the swimming and the dinner kinda got in the way... haha
It has been a really slow morning. The mail was easy and quick since it wasn't more than 30 envelopes to open, and to register the invoices took me less than 20 min. So now I have almost nothing to do... Exept for answering the phone that hardly makes any noice and frank some invoices.
See ya later
Puss och kram
Three weeks without any electricity or running water...
Hamburgsund
It was raining on our way there, but the sun came out for a few hours. Went to Strömstad and had dinner and met up with the cousins cousin. The weather was great, and so the food, thought I would rather have eaten something that was well-known for that town, Strömstad... Went back home and took the dog for a long walk with Mattias little cousin Hanna, this became a standard thing that week. When the dog needed to go for a walk, it was me and Hanna that took care of this. And while we were walking I taught her some new english words. Because, stupid little me once promissed her that she and I would go to England over a weekend or a few days. And this she remebered and told me EVERY DAY! So I had to teach her some words.
But I'm glad I did because her teacher says something that sounds like "fodd" instead of food. And evidently no one in the class can understand her when she says something...
Well the week over there kind of "rained away", but atleast we went fishing mackerel, and the first day we caugt 18, and the day after that too. We went to Smögen and had some icecream, we went to Grebbestad, Tanum... We went to some fleamarkets, found a lot of useless things I didn't want... Or need. We visited a lot of places.
I bought two pairs of Blend jeans and a pair of Blend shoes for 400 swedish crowns at a shop called "Sport shoppen".
And during the evenings we playd a card game called "plump", I sucked. We had really nice weather one day, and then we took the boat to an island with a beach. But when I was about to take a picture of a crayfish inside a shell my camera told me that it couldn't use my memory card... It worked the day before. And I was so frustrated, I was about to cry when I called dad and he said that I could use the memory inside the camera. And though I couldn't take as many pictures that I wanted to, atleast I got some frome that beautiful day at sea.
I was supposed to go home by train at saturday, but Mattias wanted to go home to so he persuaded me to stay until sunday morning. And so we did, and the entire saturday it rained "cats and dogs".... haha But when we woke up sunday morning the sun was shining and it was really hot outside. But we went home anyway since I had to go to work on monday morning. On the way home we passed Örebro and decided to visit my grandmothers husband, he has been so lonely since she died over a year ago and I've missed him and his three cats. He's so lucky to have them cause they are such a good company to him.
Well now I'm back at work and here I'll be for four weeks on. It's hard when you're alone but I think I'll manage.
Puss och kram
This week
Thursday night.
Cleaned the entire apartment, did some laundry, watched some TV and then I went to bed at 00.27. Set my alarm clock at 02.15. But snoozed until 02.42. Oooops. We left the apartment at 03.00. Came to dad around 03.12 and continued our trip to Gothemburg at 03.15.
Friday morning.
First stop at a gas station some km after Örebro. Mattias ate a sausage whit shrimpsallad(?) At 05.00 in the morning. Continued on, next and final stop for me and dad was Trollhättan and there we had some breakfast together before the buss arrived. Mattias continued on his own to Hamburgsund. And we got on the bus and went to Älvängen, and from there to Alafors.
Well that was the trip for the day, at least I thought it was over. But then we had to go to the store, and the "Expert-shop". Because my aunt and her husband think that it is time for them to have a laptop computer and a Vista program. They have had a computer once before, but they don't know anything about computers. So dad had to help them.
And while they were there and did that my cousin Sandra and I went to the largest IKEA in Sweden and I bought a (rivjärn)? Ha ha necessary, or not.
We had my other cousin and her two children here for dinner, and those two... Oh dear, I've said this to Mattias a lot of times: ONE CHILD, no more! And he agrees fully whit me since he had some bad days with his cousins. And if someone buys a toy that has any kind of sound at all to my child, that person will have to take it back and replace it with either a soft teddy (non-speaking) or a donation to my child's account. Because there will be no sound making toys in my home. Or, I'll accept the gift and give it to one of the grandparents. hahaha
Saturday:
Kind of an early morning, took a shower, then rushed downtown to catch the bus. After some busriding and a (spårvagn) we came to a marketplace, filled with muslims. We then found out that they had a conference there so that market was closed. But there was three more too go to near by. So we had a lot to do. I didn't buy anything though, exept for some fruit on the way home.
O lord did I eat much that day. But I did some biking too, so it wasn't all too bad. We rented a movie, The Grimm Brothers or whatever it's called, it was a bit weird but nice. I've been sleeping so good this two nights at my cousins house.
Sunday:
Woke up at 08.40 stayed in bed until 09.00. We had some breakfast and then called Helena so that she could hand over the car so that we could go to the coast and do some crab-fishing. And after a few fights and trips, we were finally on our way there. The weather wasn't good at all and I was glad that Helena had lent me her rain-clothes. I was soaked after an hour!
We tried for at least an hour and a half until we finally spotted the first crab, and after some trying we had him in the bucket. It then took about 20 minutes until we saw a really big one, but he was way too big and too smart for us. After 10 more minutes I got one slightly bigger than the first one, then one more two minutes after that. So now I know what kind of hiding places they like and that they like snails, and that they don't mind the (klänypor) at all.
Finally we gave up, and released the three guys into the water again and went home. We went to the store for some ingredients to the dinner, a taco pie. And on the way home, just 100 m from the parking lot, Sandra accidentally hit the sidewalk whit the back-wheel and we got a flat tyre. We changed it with the one she had in the trunk, though it looked like a wheel that you have on a scooter or something, it was really small, thin and ugly. And the maximum speed for it was 50 mph or 80 km/h. But at least it took us home and then to her parents house.
She didn't do more than drop me of and talked a bit, then her dad gave her a ride home. But today was her last day on her vacation so I understand her if she wants to go home and sleep early since she'll have to work tomorrow. Helena wanted me to come over to her but I said no, since I have to get up early and make my self ready until Mattias and the others will come to pick me up. We're going to Marstrand and look at the ruin there.
I guess I have to go to bed soon, I'll just finish my "Hart-game".
Puss och kram
Yesterday...
At night I went for a walk with Helena, my neighbour, and her gorgeus dog Baloo. We were only going to take a short walk, but it turned out to be over one hour long.
Actually we walked for about 40 min and then we met a friend on the way home and talked to her for a while. There were a lot of mosquitos out.
I'm just talking jibberish right now.
Yesterday I spend the day looking up how much it would cost us to buy a dog. I so wan't one. I never had any other pet than three birds, two at the same time. And I have never had any smaller siblings to take care of. Only one smaller cousin and my other cousin's two children. But I never had them around for more than a week... So getting pregnant or buying a dog will be a real change of life. And I'm not so sure that I'm ready for that now.
But I really want a dog, and I even found a daycare for dogs nearby that isn't too expensive, not even Mattias thought so. But the total cost of having a dog the first year would probably be over 20 000 swedish crowns, and that does not include the daycare that will probably be something necessary since the both of us work so much.
Today...
We (Mattias and I) were talking about Baloo and the fact that a neigbour over here would like to have one of his puppies. And then for some weird reason Mattias said that if Helena decides to "make" puppies and she says that we could have one of them we could get a dog now. But some how he thought that Baloo is a she, and I don't know how he came up with that idea.... But now he know better... HA HA HA HA But I guess it means that he's willing to have a American Bulldog. Well I guess we both want a big dog.
I love you guys.
Lotta
a trip down memory lane...
A four-year old telling her mom when she says a BAD WORD!!!! kids do really listen...
Just finished watching "El laberinto del fauno" aka "Pan's labyrinth". Great story, I love spanish movies.
For some it would probably be a bit weird, but I loved it. I'm a fantasy-lover.
Can't wait until the 21:st!!!! Harry Potter for those of you who don't know. It will be sad though, since it's the last book. I don't care about the movies much. In my opinion they suck actually. Ha ha ha
No work today either. Or perhaps this night? I'm stand by.
I really hope they call me in tonight. Since my mistake not sending in my work report this month, my last week will be paid out next month instead... I SUCK!!! But you hae to do that misstake someday. And I'll probably never do it again...
Well, going to do some laundry now.
Puss och kram
Lotta
I'm so stupid...
This night I realised that I hadn't sent in my day report to Manpower the last week. And you have to do it before the 1:st each month. Today is the 3:d.....
This is our last working week, the next week I'll be in Gothemburg and Hamburgsund with Mattias. He's really worked up about it. I'm just glad. We've bought us a computer, a new tv and a new car (and the four wheeler), but non of that feels like growing up as much as a planned vacation together.
I've come pretty far in my list of things to do in life before age of 25:
(The order of this is not important, it may change. Perhaps we'll get married before we sell the appartment??)
*have sex
*say "I love you"
*get engaged
*get a job
*graduate
*move in together
*buy furnitures
*renovate
*have my own "house parties"
*buy a computer
*buy a flatcreen TV
*buy something unnecessary (four-wheeler)
*buy a new car, a combi for future children
*buy the apartment
*get pregnant
*have the baby
*sell the apartment
*buy a villa
*get married
*buy a puppy
*rescue a dog
*share a horse with someone
Well will go and sleep some since I don't think MP will call today either....
Love
Lotta
Last night i saw a Tiger.
So the tiger was named KINg BIG,
And it was a good name, he was/is the biggest, strongest male tiger in that big area. And he truly is the King Big..
(the tiger in the picture has nothing to do with the text)
Sometimes I miss u so much...
Like last night, in bed.
I had my boyfriends arms around me,we held hands.
I just felt so loved, so cared for.
I was thinking about my plants,
how I want them to grow and so on.
After a while it was to warm for us, to lie as we did.
So we let go of eachother and he fell asleep.
Now I began to think about everything,
I remembered the panicattac I got when my aunt gave me the of you passing away.
My tears started to work their way down my face.
The shadow in my heart grew stronger and bigger.
I thougt of all our moments together and wondered if they were enough.
Did you know how much I loved you?
I remember your face, your calm eyes and your cute nose.
Everything that makes my other aunt cry since she think we look so much alike,
I just knows that I mis you so much sometimes.
Do you think of me up there?
Is that why I miss you? When you think of me?
I hope that you ennjoy discussing roses whit God,
cause that is what mom and I think you are doing there.
I love you granny.
Love
Lotta
